Monday, December 29, 2008

Feeling much better. Feeling good.

As much as I hate prednisone, and did not want to be on more, I have to admitt that I feel so much better since I've been taking more. I can stand and walk around and play Rock Band 2 for more than 3 songs. I like being able to move.

Another person I went to high school with is pregnant. Maybe it's just a test of somesort... so that it will be all the much better when it actually happens.

Speaking of tests... I have a weird feeling that something huge is about to happen in my life... spiritually, I mean. I have never been religious. I went to church when I was little, but my family wasn't very into it. And as a young child and teen I didn't believe in a god.

There were periods where I desperatley wanted to. But I didn't.

I like the idea of religion. I like that these people have so much support and family and love around them. That they have a belief that someone is there, with their best interests at heart all the time. And I can't imagine how comforting that must be for them.

I still think parts are crazy. I've been reading a bible from a specific religious group of which I have a crush on (what can I say, I am amazed by some of the things they do).

Part of me worries that Tim will respect me less if I believe in God.

1 comment:

Anonymous said...

a lot of me worried that most people I knew would respect/love me less when I admitted I DIDN'T believe in God anymore. But the people that really cared stayed with me. you do what you gotta do. it's all you can do.