R.C.M.P.

Lately Tim has been talking about becoming a police officer. And then he finally said to me that he wanted to do it. To start the appliation process.

"How do you feel about it?"

How do I feel about it? It's strange. I know that he would be a good police office. I know that he would be happier in this sort of career where he could do some good. I know he would like the fact that he could support us, so I could stay home with our children.

I don't have any real objections to it. I would worry about him, yes. It's hard to worry about him when he works at grocery store with 40 other people each day plus countless numbers of customers. He's doing shift work now, which is annoying but I deal with it just fine.

There's no real rush. He can't join for another 2.5 years due to some of the requirements they have. But he wants to do it. He's already started to get himself into better shape. So that he's ready.

I do not like the fact that he will have to go to Regina for 6 months of training. During which time he'll like in barrack-style accomidations. *sigh*

I suppose I just needed to vent about it. (ventventvent)

Weddings galore!

It feels like there is an abundance of weddings coming up. Tim and I's wedding, Ryan and Erin, Tim's cousin Michelle and Curtis, as well as Kristi and Mark! That's four weddings. All in the next year and a half.

In some ways it's nice. I get to talk about the experience with people who understand why it's so hard to cut people off the list, and the importance of the dress! But I suppose any girl or liberal male will appreciate dress details. I wish I had a dress. I can't wait to have a dress.

The only bad thing is that everyone else's wedding is before mine. I am jealous. I tried to convince Tim to move the wedding up to this May instead of next. He refused and I pouted for two days. Silly me.

I had forgotten how much I liked the sound of Regina Spektor's voice.

Optimism and Yoga (aaaahhh)

For the first time today, my doctor was positive about my arthritis! He looked at my inflammation levels over the last 2 years, and it has finally started to level out. He said that he's happy with how I'm doing!

Now, this might not seem like much, but for the entire two years I've seen this doctor, he is always hoping for better, always wishing things would improve. And it started getting a bit pessimistic. But it was a great change to see him be excited about my progress. That, combined with the beautiful day we had today made for a perfect first yoga day.

It wasn't really a "first" for the yoga. I took it back when Tim was in Belize to give me something to do while he was gone. And it helped with my flexibility and range of motion. So I figured, lets do it again!

The instructor was great. Really understanding and willing to modify poses for me so I could get the same benefit. And it was relaxing... so calming and grounding. I've felt great all day :)

Speaking of great days... Valentine's Day was pretty cool this year. We went out for breakfast together. Tim had to work 1-10, so I puttered around cleaning up and such, and he called me on his lunch break:

Tim: What are you up to?
Me: Oh, just cleaning up and stuff.
*DING DONG!!* (The doorbell rings!)
Me: Oh shit. The doorbell just rang.
Tim: Oh really?

I go to answer it, and it's Tim! Bearing tulips and some hagen-das caramel latte ice cream! Yum! I surprised him late on with candles and hot chocolate on our deck. In all, it was great.

Growing apart?

It's sad to realize that you may have finally out-grown some of your old friends. But I feel like I can only try so much and for so long before I just need to give up. I've given one particular friend all the chances to help make it work. Maybe it's not as exciting as doing drugs and partying. Yeah, I'm boring now. But honestly? Was I any more exciting back then?

Maybe it wasn't friendship. After all... we were the closest when they thought they were in love with me.

Wedding Dress take two?

I've heard it said that (people come into our lives for a reason...) once you find the perfect wedding dress, you'll just know. Something will click, people will cry and it will be awesome. But is that true? Or is it only true for some people?

Of the dresses I tried on so far, I liked two, and then one started to grow on me the more I looked at pictures and thought about it. But I wasn't in love with it at first.

Weddings are crazy events. We had to cut off 15 people from Tim's family, and now my mother is quickly thinking of more relatives to invite and fill up those spots :s Part of me wishes we could afford to do a bigger wedding. Part of me wishes that Tim and I would go off one Tuesday afternoon and get married on our own. I like the idea of a party, but I liked the idea of being married to Tim more.

Emotions also run high at big events. I think I've already managed to make Trish upset with me twice and it's nowhere near close to the wedding date. *sigh*

Wedding Dress

On Thursday I have requested the day off. It happens to be the day that my mother and I are going wedding dress shopping! I'm really awfully excited. Of course, I might not find anything I like, but the thought that I might is exciting.

We've so far booked the hall, the photographer, and the pastor. And we know what we're doing for music and food, we just haven't booked them yet. So we're excited.

Anyhow... I should go and get ready for work. I'm covering a shift for a co-worker who may or may not be a co-worker for much longer.

New Offices and Bookings

I had yet another infusion today. They have a brand new clinic there! Instead of the one, tiny cramped room, they have two bigger rooms, AND a storage area AND a front desk. It was nice to be in the room alone and not have a nurse hovering over you, searching your eyes for any sign of your common cold really being meningitis. (It isn't. It's a cold, I swear!)

I had a call from work this morning. It was my boss.
"Can you come in and work today?"
"No. I have my appointment to get my medication."
"Oh.. well, could you come in at 11?"
"No. It won't be done by then."

Not only was today my scheduled day off, I'm also sick! I had to cancell Sarah-Barbara Day with Sarah. Sad.

In un-sad news, Tim and I booked the German Club for our wedding! I'm so excited.. I keep trying to convince Tim to let me do things like rent plates or hire a photographer. He says it's too soon. I guess he's right. *sigh*

At Alleah's baby shower this weekend we ended up talking about the wedding. I tried to keep the talk to Alleah's little bun-in-the-oven, but hey, a room full of girls are determined to talk about weddings.

Brianna decided to throw me an engagement party. I like parties.

But when I am sick, I also like sleep. So off I go.