"Medical" leave

As of last week I am finished with work. I am on what is considerd medical leave. This encompasses several different things. But we'll be leaving it vague for now.

I haven't been at work since last Wednesday. Which is really only 3 shifts that I've missed. But I miss it. I miss the kids so much. I was in the toy store today shopping for Ben's birthday present (how he managed to sneak by and be five I'll never know) when I saw a toy that I knew one of our little boys would have loved. I miss all the different personalities, and the sweet and pure caring that they gave. I miss the gentle swarm of hands asking to "pet the baby" a.k.a. rub my pregnant tummy.

As for pregnancy? Maybe it's the stress of leaving work suddenly, but I haven't been feeling great this week. Achy, sore, uncomfortable. I keep telling myself that this HAS to be the biggest I'll get. That there isn't any more ROOM for me to grow more. But deep down I know it's a lie.

worn out

I am so sick of life today. I'm sure tomorrow I'll be friends with it again. Today... no. I've been working full time, with busy weekends. And this weekend is busy again. I hate busy weekends!

Though, last weekend was important and this weekend will be fun.

Last weekend we were in Victoria so Tim could do his PARE (the rcmp physical exam). He did great. 3:42! The cut-off time was over a minute more than that. I'm proud of him... but honestly... the closer his actually being a cop comes, the stranger I feel. *shrug*

Next weekend we're in Port Alberni for a cousin's wedding, and his Grandpa's 80th birthday. His family events make me feel uncomfortable. All I want to do is hide. But we'll have the wedding to talk about, I guess. Haha, except that we're not inviting everyone :s

Wedding news: I bought my veil... 130$ later and I won a gift certificate for the Bride's Closet. Nice. I also found out 2 other people are using my venue. But after me, so it's okay.

I miss Tim. He works late tonight and I need cuddles :(

Fall is here

I was so excited when we started to have all our rain back. It honestly didn't feel like Nanaimo with all that sunshine!

The leaves are changing. I know this because at work last week one of my kids came up to me and said, "Teacher, look! The leaves are red!" In my teacherly manner I said, "Yes, and what does that mean?"

"That it's almost your wedding!!"

Ha! That one was my fault though... They asked me when the wedding was, so I told them first all the leaves had to change colour and fall off the trees, then Christmas, then all the leaves had to grow back. I love those kiddies.

I have had a random severe pain in my wisdom teeth area... I'm positive that means they'll have to come out. Which sucks... except it can't because then I'd get dry socket!

What else... we had Tim's parents over tonight for taco dinner. We hadn't invited them over since my birthday! I felt bad. Then I rambled on about how I don't wear pants at home. I am a character.

Home made-sicles

Today at work was hectic, but very satisfying. We decided to make home made fruit popsicles. Since we had our new centre policy of no junk food, I had been sort of sad that the kids wouldn't get popsicles this summer.

So I went out and bought tons of strawberries, blueberries, and raspberries. And we mashed them up! It was so fun to see how excited they were talking about making their own. And when they finally got to eat them, they were amazed that they tasted so good and so proud of themselves for doing it! Yay kiddies!

In other news, I had my first voice lesson with Sharon yesterday. I was nervous, but feeling better about the state of my voice since that awful audition. (I swore I was a better singer than that!) She was so nice about it... telling me I just needed to warm up, and that I had a nice natural clarity to my voice. I like compliments :)

Later on yesterday we vaccinated Alice the cat (camel has - four humps!). She got sick... she wouldn't eat, wouldn't jump around, and was NOT herself. It made me mad at myself for taking her to the vet. But thankfully she has gotten happier today. My little purring machine.

In wedding news, I created a wedding newsletter, but no one wants to read it. They think I'm crazy... and you know... thinking about it, if I had heard of any other girl doing this, I would think they were crazy.

But we already knew I was crazy.

Wedding Dress

On Thursday I have requested the day off. It happens to be the day that my mother and I are going wedding dress shopping! I'm really awfully excited. Of course, I might not find anything I like, but the thought that I might is exciting.

We've so far booked the hall, the photographer, and the pastor. And we know what we're doing for music and food, we just haven't booked them yet. So we're excited.

Anyhow... I should go and get ready for work. I'm covering a shift for a co-worker who may or may not be a co-worker for much longer.