Happy Anniversary!

Today is my first anniversary! But, since Tim works 1-10 today, we decided to celebrate officially tomorrow. So today all we did was get some coffee/hot chocolate and walk down by the waterfront. Plus I also gave Tim his gift - a book about racing cars (as per the first anniversary traditional gift of paper!).

Tomorrow we're going to drive up island somewhere and have a nice dinner out, just the two and half of us! Hopefully Miss.Feets is well behaved, and I can enjoy it all.

Today, I have been cleaning! I got everything on my list finished by 4pm, so I've moved onto the things which were not on my list. I'm prepping the baby's room so that we can put up a first coat of primer tomorrow morning. I've been on Tim to get the room all painted so that I can start my setting up/decorating part of the job.

I am noticing that house cleaning is much more difficult when you are pregnant! I get a sore back quickly, and out of breath, not to mention HUNGRY!

I think that I might have hamburger helper for dinner tonight! And some veggies. And if I didn't have gestational diabetes, I would also make up the cupcakes and cream cheese icing that are sitting in my cupboard. But since I do, I won't. Otherwise I would be very tempted to eat one. Or seven.

Dissapointed?

I know when I check other people's blogs and they haven't updated in 15 days I get a little frustrated. Why aren't they posting? What is going on??

So I appoligise to anyone who was upset by this.

News: I have NOT caught H1N1. Although several children in my daycare have been diagnosed with it. I do currently have some sort of cold that dislikes me. We'll see what happens.

My wedding dress has arrived. As in MY dress! Not a store sample that hundreds of girls have tried on... MY gown! The one Tim will see and be amazed by. Absolutely stunned.

I also have a new week and a half old nephew named Kadyn! Pronouced Kay-den, for those of you who might be confused. He is adorable, which isn't confusing. And I am so completely jealous I would love to take him home. I was teasing Tim that I wouldn't take him, because he is a boy and I want a girl.

"Yeah right." He said scornfully. "If someone came up to you and said, 'This boy baby or NO baby.' You would take him."

"Absolutely." I said. People very rarely give away free babies. Although I used to have daydreams that while I was hanging my arms out the car window a baby would fall from the sky from a plane and they would let me keep it because I saved it from smushing onto the ground. Dreams die hard, hey?

Speaking of dreams... I had three in a row where my oldest younger brother was angry at me. Which is silly, because he's not. None of my brothers are. Although the middle one might be rejecting everyone :s

I have decorted somewhat. I'm not allowed a tree untill December. And I can't do it on my own because the tree is extremely huge and difficult. It is a two person job.

worn out

I am so sick of life today. I'm sure tomorrow I'll be friends with it again. Today... no. I've been working full time, with busy weekends. And this weekend is busy again. I hate busy weekends!

Though, last weekend was important and this weekend will be fun.

Last weekend we were in Victoria so Tim could do his PARE (the rcmp physical exam). He did great. 3:42! The cut-off time was over a minute more than that. I'm proud of him... but honestly... the closer his actually being a cop comes, the stranger I feel. *shrug*

Next weekend we're in Port Alberni for a cousin's wedding, and his Grandpa's 80th birthday. His family events make me feel uncomfortable. All I want to do is hide. But we'll have the wedding to talk about, I guess. Haha, except that we're not inviting everyone :s

Wedding news: I bought my veil... 130$ later and I won a gift certificate for the Bride's Closet. Nice. I also found out 2 other people are using my venue. But after me, so it's okay.

I miss Tim. He works late tonight and I need cuddles :(

Fall is here

I was so excited when we started to have all our rain back. It honestly didn't feel like Nanaimo with all that sunshine!

The leaves are changing. I know this because at work last week one of my kids came up to me and said, "Teacher, look! The leaves are red!" In my teacherly manner I said, "Yes, and what does that mean?"

"That it's almost your wedding!!"

Ha! That one was my fault though... They asked me when the wedding was, so I told them first all the leaves had to change colour and fall off the trees, then Christmas, then all the leaves had to grow back. I love those kiddies.

I have had a random severe pain in my wisdom teeth area... I'm positive that means they'll have to come out. Which sucks... except it can't because then I'd get dry socket!

What else... we had Tim's parents over tonight for taco dinner. We hadn't invited them over since my birthday! I felt bad. Then I rambled on about how I don't wear pants at home. I am a character.

The Wedding Plans

The plans... the plans have evolved so much from my original wedding vision. While I know I had to start somewhere, it's odd to see what I thought I wanted vs. what I'm getting or what I want now.

In the beginning I wanted Green and Brown for colours. That has slowly and unintentionally evolved into Green and White with brown accents.

In the beginning I wanted roses, elaborate herb and wildflower bouquets. And now I'm so excited about handpicked lilacs from my mother's yard.

In the beginning I wanted tacos. And... well, actually I still want to have tacos. But now we're having soups and salads and sandwiches. Cheaper, more crowd pleasing, and deffinatley safer in a white dress! (Or, ivory, in my case.)

Most of all I'm excited to be married to Tim. Last night I half jokingly, half seriously asked him if we could sneak off to city hall and get married, and keep it a secret from everyone else for the next 9 months. He said no. But I always think that would be so romantic... getting married and having no one know.

I kind of understand why people feel the need to elope. Plus, weddings are expensive! We're doing ours for super cheap. But honestly, the only reason we can do it that way is we have so many friends and family members willing to help out. A friend is doing my hair, my sister in law is doing the cake, my mom is buying my dress, my dad is chipping in some cash, and so on and so on.

I love my wedding. And I feel like I'm organized enough now that by the time the wedding is a month away, I'll be able to sit back and enjoy the excitement.

The Dress :)

Yesterday was my day off. Usually I don't get Wednesday's off. They are super busy at work, so I'm usually there all day long. But due to the holiday I ended up with a free day.

Tim and I went around getting some errands done and then I had him drop me off downtown. I figured I'd take back my long over-due library books (like, 6 or 7 months over-due!) and maybe have a quick look at some dresses... just because I could.

So I get there, to The Bride's Closet, and I start picking ouy dresses I'd like to try on. None of them are jumping out at me too much form the racks, but I'm not worried. Today was just a casual try on day, right?

I go and start to try on dresses.... nothing's looking that great. Then I see my neighbour, Erin, and her sister Sara coming inside! Erin is getting married on Saturday and was picking up her dress. So they were there for this next momenteous moment.

I tried on one which we all liked. Then I went back and put on The Dress. It was very cool. For those of you who would like to see a picture, it is the Jacqueline style #1618. I don't dare put up a picture just in case Tim stumbled over to have a look.

I walked out and the lady laced me up. And then all we could do was look. Which wasn't too unusual really. But then I didn't want to take it off... and finally Sara went and got a veil and stuck it into my hair. And I started to cry.

So I have an appointment on Sunday to go back with my mom and Julie to try it on for them and get their opinion.

I keep looking at the pictures we took with my phone... I am nervous!!

Home made-sicles

Today at work was hectic, but very satisfying. We decided to make home made fruit popsicles. Since we had our new centre policy of no junk food, I had been sort of sad that the kids wouldn't get popsicles this summer.

So I went out and bought tons of strawberries, blueberries, and raspberries. And we mashed them up! It was so fun to see how excited they were talking about making their own. And when they finally got to eat them, they were amazed that they tasted so good and so proud of themselves for doing it! Yay kiddies!

In other news, I had my first voice lesson with Sharon yesterday. I was nervous, but feeling better about the state of my voice since that awful audition. (I swore I was a better singer than that!) She was so nice about it... telling me I just needed to warm up, and that I had a nice natural clarity to my voice. I like compliments :)

Later on yesterday we vaccinated Alice the cat (camel has - four humps!). She got sick... she wouldn't eat, wouldn't jump around, and was NOT herself. It made me mad at myself for taking her to the vet. But thankfully she has gotten happier today. My little purring machine.

In wedding news, I created a wedding newsletter, but no one wants to read it. They think I'm crazy... and you know... thinking about it, if I had heard of any other girl doing this, I would think they were crazy.

But we already knew I was crazy.

Whoops! I lost March!

I have lost the month of March! It went by so fast it was almost scary. Does anyone else feel like it was just Christmas time? I swear I still have wrapping paper hiding in my house!

March has been full of stuff. Tim turned 24. My doctor was actually optimistic about my arthritis! I've applied to write a wedding blog for a certain website. I'm actually very excited about that. I like talking weddings. So to be able to do it every week or so would be awesome :)

I have had a very good day today. It was absolutely a Spring day. Sunny, warm, very beautiful. I opened all my windows wide and let it in. I got to visit with my neighbor, Erin, who is also getting married (This August!). Its nice to have someone to discuss things with. I think I've said that before, but it is true.

Moving on, my birthday is coming up soon! Which means that a slew of other people's birthdays are coming too. Elina, Benjamin, My mommy, a particular person who I call a friend in my mind where no one can hear.

So goodbye to March, and lets welcome April. Hurry up!

Weddings galore!

It feels like there is an abundance of weddings coming up. Tim and I's wedding, Ryan and Erin, Tim's cousin Michelle and Curtis, as well as Kristi and Mark! That's four weddings. All in the next year and a half.

In some ways it's nice. I get to talk about the experience with people who understand why it's so hard to cut people off the list, and the importance of the dress! But I suppose any girl or liberal male will appreciate dress details. I wish I had a dress. I can't wait to have a dress.

The only bad thing is that everyone else's wedding is before mine. I am jealous. I tried to convince Tim to move the wedding up to this May instead of next. He refused and I pouted for two days. Silly me.

I had forgotten how much I liked the sound of Regina Spektor's voice.

Wedding Dress take two?

I've heard it said that (people come into our lives for a reason...) once you find the perfect wedding dress, you'll just know. Something will click, people will cry and it will be awesome. But is that true? Or is it only true for some people?

Of the dresses I tried on so far, I liked two, and then one started to grow on me the more I looked at pictures and thought about it. But I wasn't in love with it at first.

Weddings are crazy events. We had to cut off 15 people from Tim's family, and now my mother is quickly thinking of more relatives to invite and fill up those spots :s Part of me wishes we could afford to do a bigger wedding. Part of me wishes that Tim and I would go off one Tuesday afternoon and get married on our own. I like the idea of a party, but I liked the idea of being married to Tim more.

Emotions also run high at big events. I think I've already managed to make Trish upset with me twice and it's nowhere near close to the wedding date. *sigh*

Wedding Dress

On Thursday I have requested the day off. It happens to be the day that my mother and I are going wedding dress shopping! I'm really awfully excited. Of course, I might not find anything I like, but the thought that I might is exciting.

We've so far booked the hall, the photographer, and the pastor. And we know what we're doing for music and food, we just haven't booked them yet. So we're excited.

Anyhow... I should go and get ready for work. I'm covering a shift for a co-worker who may or may not be a co-worker for much longer.

New Offices and Bookings

I had yet another infusion today. They have a brand new clinic there! Instead of the one, tiny cramped room, they have two bigger rooms, AND a storage area AND a front desk. It was nice to be in the room alone and not have a nurse hovering over you, searching your eyes for any sign of your common cold really being meningitis. (It isn't. It's a cold, I swear!)

I had a call from work this morning. It was my boss.
"Can you come in and work today?"
"No. I have my appointment to get my medication."
"Oh.. well, could you come in at 11?"
"No. It won't be done by then."

Not only was today my scheduled day off, I'm also sick! I had to cancell Sarah-Barbara Day with Sarah. Sad.

In un-sad news, Tim and I booked the German Club for our wedding! I'm so excited.. I keep trying to convince Tim to let me do things like rent plates or hire a photographer. He says it's too soon. I guess he's right. *sigh*

At Alleah's baby shower this weekend we ended up talking about the wedding. I tried to keep the talk to Alleah's little bun-in-the-oven, but hey, a room full of girls are determined to talk about weddings.

Brianna decided to throw me an engagement party. I like parties.

But when I am sick, I also like sleep. So off I go.

Bride-zilla! ROAR!

I had my latest infusion on Wednesday. I had to take the day off work to do it, and I felt guilty. But I need this.

I was surprised how much it actually helps. How much better I feel after I have it. Last month there were lots of days when it was difficult to do things, and I feel into kind of a slump around the house. I wasn't tidying up, I wasn't helping contribute. Tim would come home from working all day and I wouldn't have moved off of the couch.

He never complained. He's not like that. But I felt awful about it. So it's better now.

I had the good nurse for my infusion. She got the IV in after the first try, and it was a very relaxed, calm 2 hours.

I found out that they are moving the infusion clinic. To a bigger room! Yay! And we get cable. They really try hard to make the experience a pleasant one.

I spent my last infusion reading bridal magazines. You may call me bridezilla, but I refuse to have a crappy, awful, stressful wedding. I refuse.

All I can say is.... ROAR!